Recently I’ve been wanting to leave the state I’m in and I don’t really know why. With summer classes I don’t really have to be on campus but I am. I guess it’s just because I want to be anonymous again. That feeling of no one knows me is just so satisfying to me. It gives me more inspiration to be who I want to become. A friend and I are trying to plan a trip to Brooklyn, New York later on this summer. I just don’t know what I’m going to do with another person. I’m so used to traveling apart of me is just wanting to say no. I don’t know what to do, I just know that I want to feel anonymous again without the pressure of others around me. Thank you so much for sticking with me, I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next week!
Over here the weather’s a mess I’ll just put it at that. One minute its warm and sunny, I can wear a tank top. The next its storming like its gonna snow. So right now I’m seeming this weather summer. I feel like I look cool but really I look pastel goth. I dont mind this look I actually am digging it so much. It’s just I feel like I always have to dress for anything. Its annoying honestly. Anyways I know this wasn’t the normal thing but that’s all I had on my mind to share with you guys! I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you next sunday!
I don’t think I mentioned this before but I work out pretty regularly about 4-5 times a week. Over time I’ve seen this benefit me and my overall health but at times I was still a mess. Now I’m at this routine where i workout so far every morning this week. I don’t know I guess sometimes working out does make a difference and other times not so much. I know this was short but my mind is somewhere else working on other poems. I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next week!
So as you all now I have been writing spoken word since late last year but it hasn’t been the same. Recently I’ve been back at it writing short stories about characters based off of who I am or was. I am going to make an effort to write not about me this summer seeing as that usually helped dealing with shit. By shit I mean terrible thoughts of the past and present. I will be posting them to my old Wattpad account when they are done and decently edited by people. I will update it in each blog whenever there is one.
Also I got a ukulele so I will be trying new things with that on my YouTube channel. Like usual keep an eye out and I hope the rest of your day is great.
So as you all know I’ve been going to therapy for about almost a month, weekly meetings. This a school provided thing and they wont be here during the summer. They’ve highly encouraged me to do summer therapy but again I’m at a cross roads. Usually I never went to therapy during the summer. I always had a job or something to keep me occupied. I’m at a cross roads and have no clue what to do. I’ll update what I decide to do in this same draft. See you guys later and I hope you have a good day!
Talked about with therapist and still on the fence about it but I think I’m willing. Maybe in the next few weeks or something. Hope you had a fantastic day!
I am going to summer therapy and I will make a separate post about it in a few weeks<3
I’ve been writing a lot more that usual. This is a good and bad thing, let me explain. If I write too much I dont have time to proofread. I just keep writing and writing but I never look it over and criticize my own writing.
It’s a good thing because I dont really have writer block. I just keep writing and I always have something to work on.
But some my work will never meet another set of eyes and is that okay? Totally. Recently in my creative writing class, yes I’ve been going to class again. Proud moment my dudes! There was a poet who came his name was Danez Smith. He has won a ton of awards and has a book that I will link at the bottom. It was amazing to hear him speak and answer some questions.
I asked him about his writing process. He said that he doesn’t know, he just made time for it whenever. That made me realize that I have the time to write like my blog and YouTube channel. (Btw I will post a video this coming tuesday I promise!) Now as the time comes down to choose work for my portfolio, I have no idea. My writing as of now ranges from depressing as ef, or kind of hopeful and inspiring. There are some that are inbetween but I’m not sure it would get the message across. I feel like this message could be very raw and deep. It could be but I still have no clue. I guess that’s the adventure in this. Thank you for letting me rant about this and I will see you guys next Sunday!
Recently I’ve been reading a lot and I realized that I missed it. I started reading Emergency Contact by Mary H.K. Choi and so far I am really enjoying it. As this is going out I don’t know how far I am but I may already be finished with it. While i was reading not matter where it was I remembered the joy of reading. How when you read that really good book that you forgot time was a thing. Or when you got in a really comfortable position in a public place but you don’t care about that. On Wednesday I was at the mall because finals is upon my campus and I needed to get away. So I went into Barnes and Noble right? Got this really large amount of tea and I sat down to read. For however long I was there I enjoyed it. I forgot how much you can relate to characters and picture them as friends. (If If you do that too we are automatically friends.)
I could go on and on about this but I have other papers to write and procrastinate. Leave a comment about your favorite book or character and why, I love hearing these so much. Mine currently is the main character of Emergency Contact, her name is Penny. I love how she’s so sarcastic and has a dry sense of humor. She’s awkward beyond belief and is a college freshman like myself. Anyways I hope your day or week was amazing and I will see you guys next Sunday!