Okay not going to lie this trip was inspired by my favorite Youtuber, model, and woman Eva Gutowski. If you don’t know who she is…link is down below.

So I keep watching this vlog of hers where she goes to Hawaii. The vlog on her collaboration with ColourPop. And I went on this not journey but spontaneous trip with that in the back of my mind. I got an Airbnb near the capital and called it a day. The one thing I was freaking out about this was, one, do they have Lyft there? (yes). Two, do I have the address right on this airbnb?(yes I did). Keep in mind I had no clue what I was going to do or where I was going to go, I’ve only been to Hawaii once before when I was about 7 or something.

So jump to where I was actually staying, the place I stayed at was super nice. I got the whole complex to myself, the people who were watching over the places were nice as well. And while I was there I just felt at home. The weather was phenomenal the entire trip. A lot of people thought I was local, which personally made me feel at home. So when I told people I was from the mainland, they were a little shocked. Everyone kept saying that I had that Aloha spirit which I can understand. Taking in what Hawaii’s indigenous people went through it was the same from a lot of other peoples on the mainland during and still today while colonization was happening.

So taking that into account I felt more at peace there. I walked around a lot my first actual day there. And one thing I like to do when I travel is not act like a tourist. I like to live like a local so to speak, I realized that a lot less people talk to you unless you want to talk to people, which is something I enjoy. As I mentioned earlier I took Lyfts everywhere around the island. It was cheaper than back home so I was living. I had conversations with most of them about what it’s like living here on this island. One person who I remember asking what it’s like replied with,”it nice and all, you can’t beat the weather. But the one thing is after a while you have no sense of time anymore…”

He then went on to explain how since the weather is so nice all the time you can’t really tell. Where on the mainland seasons change so you have a warning or literal sign of what month and day it is, you don’t get that there.

That was just one out of three conversations but I think I will save those for another time when I think they’re relevant. As for now I would love to hear where you guys have and where you want to go. Like always I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next time!


Keeping Busy

So recently I’ve been doing this but not in the right way. I feel like you guys can relate because we all do this, so thankfully I’m not alone.

Story time(v)

I was in my old room, my bed was on my floor I had my music blasting. I wasn’t talking to anyone and I was in my own head twenty four seven. I barely got out of my room besides going to class or doing my laundry. It wasn’t until later as I type this that I realized I was busy…. Just not in the right thing.

See I feel like we all get like this to some degree, like if we watch too much Netflix besides working out or studying. Whatever the case may be I’m glad I noticed this when I did. To be honest I wasn’t going to post something today since I was going back to my own head.  It took me a minute to realize why I was acting the way I did before I started to type out this post. I mean this isn’t me saying I’m always like this but yes there was a period in my life when I was just in my own head twenty four seven.

So I went off on a little tangent but I will end with this and what helps me. Ask yourself how you are doing in any current situation. This has helped me ground myself and actually think about what I have to do versus what I did do. Then I clean for like ten minutes on a space where I work or a spot in my room I’ve been delaying for a while. Lastly, I make some tea, put on some tunes(usually indie or something from the girlboss playlist) and I get to work on something. I hope this helped you guys in anyway. Like always I hope the rest of your week is great and I will see you guys next time!


The Valiant by Lesley Livingston(1/2)

So like most books I read this a while ago, to be more specific in December and took me a month-ish to read. Overall this was my favorite, I know I said this for most of the book I read but how can I not? This had all of my favorite things in a book that I aspire to write like one day. Historical fiction? check. Adventure? Romance? Feminine Lead who cared about her family rather than her lover? All checks my friend. Though the only down side for me is the antagonist is easily spotted and some holes in the scenes and what not. Especially in the second book, I mean like most series the first one is usually the best one. I could pull up many examples of this but wont so I don’t bore you guys to internet death.

Okay so now that I got all of that out of the way I still highly recommend this book if any of you are interested. So yeah, actually I got the sample of this book a really long time ago like before it even came out. (Well no duh but you guys know what i mean) I was anticipating the release but I forgot about it because of other books and well life. (Haha yeah I’m funny when actually I barley have a life outside of you guys let me just be honest) So when I saw this book on the shelves of Barnes and Noble in 2017 November I got the bad ass looking cover.  I started to read it during the predate of my mental breakdown that lasted a few month(honestly couldn’t remember how long that lasted to be honest).

Back to the topic at hand, this book, like most of the books I read literally transported me to where Fallon was.  On the topic of her by the way can we just applaud her character? (Round of applause in the distance, thanks you guys) Like the only thing she wanted to do was make her country proud and protect it all for her sister too? Amazing!

Now before we get into character opinions please keep in mind if you haven’t read the book that this is spoilers. SO DON’T READ THIS AND READ THE FREAKIN’ BOOKS ITS AMAZING AND THEN COME BACK AND READ THIS! (okay and thank you)

First off is Fallon, the character I aspire to and my motivation to workout. (ha another one of me trying to be funny) Okay so we see that all she wanted was to go fight along side her father like her ‘dead’ sister Sorcha. But then we are see that her long time friend from a neighboring city admit his love to her and I honestly saw this coming. So then she all like I can go fight next to my father and then I can marry this man I love. But then stuff goes the opposite way. Her father basically was like (sips tea) “nah you’re not going to fight next to me in battle because your MY LaSt DAughTER WhO’S aLiVE! Instead you’re going your ideal husbands brother because I don’t care who you love I just want you to not freaking die!!” So it’s this whole scene that had me broken for a hot minute but then our girl Fallon was all like, “Ah whelp then it looks like I’m just going to run away from all this because eff this.” Which is honestly a mood, so she goes to find her future husband but when she spots him.(Inhales deeply then does those hand motions that were cool like a month ago). Her lover got stabbed by his freaking brother(internally screaming) So we see him die then it’s all down hill from there for our girl Fallon, she got kidnapped by people who sold slaves, she almost died multiple times. The only plus was we met the new new love interest who’s a roman solider for JULIUS CEASER. (SWORN ENEMY BY THE WAY) She gets bid off to go be a gladiator fighter for HIM then ended up being actually pretty freaking good(I mean what do you expect when you train for battle with your older sister and continues for years after her death)  BUT anyways I got lost because of reasons. So Fallon = bomb character who I adore and have too much to say about her and I still need to talk about the other characters.

Second on our list is Cai, the love interest after the dead one who I was rooting for. So low-key he reminded me of those people look really intimidating but are actual soft humans you know? I have a friend like that and their nice but we clash on somethings but that’s besides the point. When we first met Cai who was like uhh isn’t this too soon? Because like it wasn’t even two chapters ago that we saw the other guy die. Thankfully our girl Fallon was still grieving for him which I honestly don’t see that much of in YA now a days. It’s like a moment but not the normal grieving process which really annoys me especially when it comes to romance. Before I go off on a tangent I have a few problems with Cai (okay really it’s like one but that’s it) So when we first meet Cai it’s during the ship battle thing and I’m just puzzled on how he fell for her in that moment? I don’t know but in end I was happy for their relationship. Their problems could’ve been solved by like actual talking about I don’t know emotions and how they actual feelings but that’s just me.

Lastly for this review well be talking about Elka. So if you can recall we met Elka in the first couple of chapters when our girl Fallon tired to escape from slavery. They had a rocky relationship but they each agreed on one thing, they hate the Romans and want to leave. Her backstory left me in metaphorical tears not going to lie. As we get to know her more we see why she is they way she is. We learn more about her in the second book which I will tell you guys in the near near future. I hope I didn’t let you guys experience an internet death. As always I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next time!

Travel and work

So as you all know, school is my job and I am blessed enough to say that. With my recent traveling I have decided to talk about what I do to manage my school work. This is what works for me, what works for me may not work for someone else. If this helps amazing sauce.

So first I get what assignments are due right away or something I can plan out. For me right now that’s my English class. I have discussions I can start on the plane. I have an essay due next week sunday and more discussions. Sounds like a lot right? It kind of is, not going to lie, I’m not a huge fan of online discussions.

Okay so know you have what you want to work on right? Right okay cool. So now get working, it’s honestly that simple. The good part about this is if your on a flight or just in your dorm. This plan is useful, I usually work this way if I’m not having a mental breakdown every three days. 

I’m not saying I travel a lot and all the time but when I do this is what works for me. I hope this helped you guys in anyway. As always I hope the rest of your week is fantastic and I will see you guys next week!


Recently I’ve been wanting to leave the state I’m in and I don’t really know why. With summer classes I don’t really have to be on campus but I am. I guess it’s just because I want to be anonymous again. That feeling of no one knows me is just so satisfying to me. It gives me more inspiration to be who I want to become. A friend and I are trying to plan a trip to Brooklyn, New York later on this summer. I just don’t know what I’m going to do with another person. I’m so used to traveling apart of me is just wanting to say no. I don’t know what to do, I just know that I want to feel anonymous again without the pressure of others around me. Thank you so much for sticking with me, I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next week!

Summer kinda

Over here the weather’s a mess I’ll just put it at that. One minute its warm and sunny, I can wear a tank top. The next its storming like its gonna snow. So right now I’m seeming this weather summer. I feel like I look cool but really I look pastel goth. I dont mind this look I actually am digging it so much. It’s just I feel like I always have to dress for anything. Its annoying honestly. Anyways I know this wasn’t the normal thing but that’s all I had on my mind to share with you guys! I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you next sunday!

Working out

I don’t think I mentioned this before but I work out pretty regularly about 4-5 times a week. Over time I’ve seen this benefit me and my overall health but at times I was still a mess. Now I’m at this routine where i workout so far every morning this week. I don’t know I guess sometimes working out does make a difference and other times not so much. I know this was short but my mind is somewhere else working on other poems. I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next week!