Rainy day update

So it rained all day here and I’d just thought this would be a pretty neat idea to keep doing. This time around I’ve been feeling better even though I just ate ramen noodles an drank a red bull. Without further ado here are the updates:

  1. I made confetti cupcakes the other day
  2. I cleaned out my closet again
  3. I got my summer housing all taken care of which is fantastic
  4. I was recently told it was strawberry season in Japan so that’s cool
  5. The snows basically gone here
  6. I got some new pleated skirts so can’t wait to wear an style them
  7. Just finished watching New Game which is a cute slice of life anime (Highly recommend it.)

That’s really all I got for right now, I’m just prepping for finals right now and trying to get stuff done for study abroad. As always I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next time!

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So sorry but school

So as of lately anxiety has kicked my butt. Procrastination?  yup I know them, well actually. Midterms are around the corner and I am so sorry I’ve neglected you guys for some time now. Just letting you know though I am active on Youtube the most as of recently. Currently I am getting ready for something huge to me and will let you guys know once everything is in place. I’m getting a paper done as I type this (on a break right now lol).  And I’m still getting through this small little rough patch but it’s okay and I know that it’s not going to go on forever. (Just trying to take things day by day, focusing on the small things and taking things slow) Actually though I have been watching more slice of life style anime which if you didn’t know are my all time favorite. I will make a short list for this Sundays post. As always I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next time!

Relationships(pt 2)

Okay so apologies for the lateness of this post first off. Second let me know if you guys like this list format. So here’s a list of things I’ve taken away with my past and current relationship.

  1. You don’t need to talk to someone twenty-four seven (sometimes you need that break)
  2. If they aren’t putting effort, honestly aren’t worth it
  3. Vulnerability helps gain trust
  4. Tell them how you’re feeling when they feel it (don’t bottle shit up)
  5. Listen to music together
  6. If you are in a relationship remember it’s not one sided

I know it’s short but that’s what I thought of off the top of my head. As always I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next time!

Therapy is good.

So last week I didn’t have therapy and let me tell you, I did alright. I mean I socialized more than I normally would which is a plus but draining for me. Anyways I used to have a friend who was always on the fence about going to therapy. The reason I went was because a close friend of mine told to try one session, that was it. They didn’t push me at all but just encouraged. So I did and here we are now, I’m going off campus but am still going to therapy.

At first it was boring and I thought I could solve everything. I thought I could fix everything in my life but I couldn’t. I got angry at myself for not having everything together. If you guys remember I was really dreading summer therapy. I tried it out and ended up really liking my current therapist. It’s not a huge commitment maybe an hour of your day(the only thing is if it’s far away or not) I really like the area I’m in because there’s a whole foods a few blocks away and a bunch of restaurants.

Therapy gives me a time to talk to someone and get a third opinion on stuff. Other times I rant to them about things bothering me. I’ve been trying to push myself but in the right way. Recently I’ve been trying to socialize more but not too much to where I’m drained constantly. That’s one thing I really have to work on so I’m just trying to find that balance. Also reflections, I know it sounds lame but it’s kind of like therapy only it’s for my eyes to see how much I’ve grown. It pretty simple, get a notebook and pen then think and write about things you realized about yourself this month or last month. This helps you think about who you are and who you want to become.

As always I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next time!

New York(1)

Okay so I know I don’t tell you guys all about my life but by the title, yes I went to New York. If you follow me on instagram you should know this already, so here’s what happened.

I was staying with a family in Union City. The room was very beautiful, like something out of a vintage movie. (The house was pretty old) Anyways the house was amazing, but in my true fashion, I had something to work on. Yup I had to finish an essay for the first summer term english class I had. I didnt really have that good of time management skill(working on that, I promise)

Carrying on with our tale trip, my one pet peeve I didnt enjoy was going back and forth from Union City to NYC simply becuase it was money. And actually one of the days I forgot my wallet back at the airbnb SO I had to get a lyft back. Other than those problems the trip was a success. I didn’t vlog it but most of it did go on my instastory(@alonna_lucille)[you’re welcome]. I went to multiple art museums, went to a lot of cool bookstores, and ate an drank some pretty tasty things. The most memorable trip by far becuase I did a very big personal thing that helped me strengthen my relationship with my parents before I left. So needless to say that trip will always be in my mind whenever I make it back to New York City.

As always I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next time!

Going back to writing short stories.

So as you all now I have been writing spoken word since late last year but it hasn’t been the same.  Recently I’ve been back at it writing short stories about characters based off of who I am or was. I am going to make an effort to write not about me this summer seeing as that usually helped dealing with shit. By shit I mean terrible thoughts of the past and present.  I will be posting them to my old Wattpad account when they are done and decently edited by people. I will update it in each blog whenever there is one.

Also I got a ukulele so I will be trying new things with that on my YouTube channel. Like usual keep an eye out and I hope the rest of your day is great.

I have problems and am trying(honestly)

Okay so recently I have been in this rut in all three areas (mentally, physically, and emotionally).

So now as I type here I am going to go out of my comfort zone. Today at 4pm I am going to go to an aerial class that will be going on for four weeks every Sunday. If the events on Saturday dont go well, I will sign up for one therapy session. I also signed up for a four week pole class starting on april fourth.

I am both scared and excited to be trying these things, I also realized through this relapse that my feelings are vaild. It took me eighteen years to realize that what I am feeling right now is actually good. It’s just when I feel it constantly and it has overtook my life is when it gets bad.

I get so stuck within my head that I just expect people to get what happened and all of that. It’s terrible when you want to tell someone something but not actually wanting to say any of it.

I will also be uploading a new video, whether on my vlog channel or my main every tuesday. So keep an eye out for that on my social media.

As for my blog I will continue to do book reviews, Self care Sundays, and my photo blog will start up again next week. These past few weeks have been very bad and saturday may be my breaking point. But on the bright side…I honestly can’t think of anything right now other than I might get to see my friends tomorrow. I’m under some pressure by my parents saturday but what’s new there. I paid for my classes already and there’s no going back. I really need to sleep. Yeah, thank you so much for sticking with me!