So as of lately anxiety has kicked my butt. Procrastination? yup I know them, well actually. Midterms are around the corner and I am so sorry I’ve neglected you guys for some time now. Just letting you know though I am active on Youtube the most as of recently. Currently I am getting ready for something huge to me and will let you guys know once everything is in place. I’m getting a paper done as I type this (on a break right now lol). And I’m still getting through this small little rough patch but it’s okay and I know that it’s not going to go on forever. (Just trying to take things day by day, focusing on the small things and taking things slow) Actually though I have been watching more slice of life style anime which if you didn’t know are my all time favorite. I will make a short list for this Sundays post. As always I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next time!
Okay so apologies for the lateness of this post first off. Second let me know if you guys like this list format. So here’s a list of things I’ve taken away with my past and current relationship.
- You don’t need to talk to someone twenty-four seven (sometimes you need that break)
- If they aren’t putting effort, honestly aren’t worth it
- Vulnerability helps gain trust
- Tell them how you’re feeling when they feel it (don’t bottle shit up)
- Listen to music together
- If you are in a relationship remember it’s not one sided
I know it’s short but that’s what I thought of off the top of my head. As always I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next time!
Okay so I know I don’t tell you guys all about my life but by the title, yes I went to New York. If you follow me on instagram you should know this already, so here’s what happened.
I was staying with a family in Union City. The room was very beautiful, like something out of a vintage movie. (The house was pretty old) Anyways the house was amazing, but in my true fashion, I had something to work on. Yup I had to finish an essay for the first summer term english class I had. I didnt really have that good of time management skill(working on that, I promise)
Carrying on with our tale trip, my one pet peeve I didnt enjoy was going back and forth from Union City to NYC simply becuase it was money. And actually one of the days I forgot my wallet back at the airbnb SO I had to get a lyft back. Other than those problems the trip was a success. I didn’t vlog it but most of it did go on my instastory(@alonna_lucille)[you’re welcome]. I went to multiple art museums, went to a lot of cool bookstores, and ate an drank some pretty tasty things. The most memorable trip by far becuase I did a very big personal thing that helped me strengthen my relationship with my parents before I left. So needless to say that trip will always be in my mind whenever I make it back to New York City.
As always I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next time!
So recently I’ve been doing this but not in the right way. I feel like you guys can relate because we all do this, so thankfully I’m not alone.
I was in my old room, my bed was on my floor I had my music blasting. I wasn’t talking to anyone and I was in my own head twenty four seven. I barely got out of my room besides going to class or doing my laundry. It wasn’t until later as I type this that I realized I was busy…. Just not in the right thing.
See I feel like we all get like this to some degree, like if we watch too much Netflix besides working out or studying. Whatever the case may be I’m glad I noticed this when I did. To be honest I wasn’t going to post something today since I was going back to my own head. It took me a minute to realize why I was acting the way I did before I started to type out this post. I mean this isn’t me saying I’m always like this but yes there was a period in my life when I was just in my own head twenty four seven.
So I went off on a little tangent but I will end with this and what helps me. Ask yourself how you are doing in any current situation. This has helped me ground myself and actually think about what I have to do versus what I did do. Then I clean for like ten minutes on a space where I work or a spot in my room I’ve been delaying for a while. Lastly, I make some tea, put on some tunes(usually indie or something from the girlboss playlist) and I get to work on something. I hope this helped you guys in anyway. Like always I hope the rest of your week is great and I will see you guys next time!
Recently I’ve been wanting to leave the state I’m in and I don’t really know why. With summer classes I don’t really have to be on campus but I am. I guess it’s just because I want to be anonymous again. That feeling of no one knows me is just so satisfying to me. It gives me more inspiration to be who I want to become. A friend and I are trying to plan a trip to Brooklyn, New York later on this summer. I just don’t know what I’m going to do with another person. I’m so used to traveling apart of me is just wanting to say no. I don’t know what to do, I just know that I want to feel anonymous again without the pressure of others around me. Thank you so much for sticking with me, I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next week!
I don’t think I mentioned this before but I work out pretty regularly about 4-5 times a week. Over time I’ve seen this benefit me and my overall health but at times I was still a mess. Now I’m at this routine where i workout so far every morning this week. I don’t know I guess sometimes working out does make a difference and other times not so much. I know this was short but my mind is somewhere else working on other poems. I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next week!
So as you all now I have been writing spoken word since late last year but it hasn’t been the same. Recently I’ve been back at it writing short stories about characters based off of who I am or was. I am going to make an effort to write not about me this summer seeing as that usually helped dealing with shit. By shit I mean terrible thoughts of the past and present. I will be posting them to my old Wattpad account when they are done and decently edited by people. I will update it in each blog whenever there is one.
Also I got a ukulele so I will be trying new things with that on my YouTube channel. Like usual keep an eye out and I hope the rest of your day is great.