So sorry but school

So as of lately anxiety has kicked my butt. Procrastination?  yup I know them, well actually. Midterms are around the corner and I am so sorry I’ve neglected you guys for some time now. Just letting you know though I am active on Youtube the most as of recently. Currently I am getting ready for something huge to me and will let you guys know once everything is in place. I’m getting a paper done as I type this (on a break right now lol).  And I’m still getting through this small little rough patch but it’s okay and I know that it’s not going to go on forever. (Just trying to take things day by day, focusing on the small things and taking things slow) Actually though I have been watching more slice of life style anime which if you didn’t know are my all time favorite. I will make a short list for this Sundays post. As always I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next time!

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Relationships(pt 2)

Okay so apologies for the lateness of this post first off. Second let me know if you guys like this list format. So here’s a list of things I’ve taken away with my past and current relationship.

  1. You don’t need to talk to someone twenty-four seven (sometimes you need that break)
  2. If they aren’t putting effort, honestly aren’t worth it
  3. Vulnerability helps gain trust
  4. Tell them how you’re feeling when they feel it (don’t bottle shit up)
  5. Listen to music together
  6. If you are in a relationship remember it’s not one sided

I know it’s short but that’s what I thought of off the top of my head. As always I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next time!

New York(1)

Okay so I know I don’t tell you guys all about my life but by the title, yes I went to New York. If you follow me on instagram you should know this already, so here’s what happened.

I was staying with a family in Union City. The room was very beautiful, like something out of a vintage movie. (The house was pretty old) Anyways the house was amazing, but in my true fashion, I had something to work on. Yup I had to finish an essay for the first summer term english class I had. I didnt really have that good of time management skill(working on that, I promise)

Carrying on with our tale trip, my one pet peeve I didnt enjoy was going back and forth from Union City to NYC simply becuase it was money. And actually one of the days I forgot my wallet back at the airbnb SO I had to get a lyft back. Other than those problems the trip was a success. I didn’t vlog it but most of it did go on my instastory(@alonna_lucille)[you’re welcome]. I went to multiple art museums, went to a lot of cool bookstores, and ate an drank some pretty tasty things. The most memorable trip by far becuase I did a very big personal thing that helped me strengthen my relationship with my parents before I left. So needless to say that trip will always be in my mind whenever I make it back to New York City.

As always I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next time!

Keeping Busy

So recently I’ve been doing this but not in the right way. I feel like you guys can relate because we all do this, so thankfully I’m not alone.

Story time(v)

I was in my old room, my bed was on my floor I had my music blasting. I wasn’t talking to anyone and I was in my own head twenty four seven. I barely got out of my room besides going to class or doing my laundry. It wasn’t until later as I type this that I realized I was busy…. Just not in the right thing.

See I feel like we all get like this to some degree, like if we watch too much Netflix besides working out or studying. Whatever the case may be I’m glad I noticed this when I did. To be honest I wasn’t going to post something today since I was going back to my own head.  It took me a minute to realize why I was acting the way I did before I started to type out this post. I mean this isn’t me saying I’m always like this but yes there was a period in my life when I was just in my own head twenty four seven.

So I went off on a little tangent but I will end with this and what helps me. Ask yourself how you are doing in any current situation. This has helped me ground myself and actually think about what I have to do versus what I did do. Then I clean for like ten minutes on a space where I work or a spot in my room I’ve been delaying for a while. Lastly, I make some tea, put on some tunes(usually indie or something from the girlboss playlist) and I get to work on something. I hope this helped you guys in anyway. Like always I hope the rest of your week is great and I will see you guys next time!

 

Travel

Recently I’ve been wanting to leave the state I’m in and I don’t really know why. With summer classes I don’t really have to be on campus but I am. I guess it’s just because I want to be anonymous again. That feeling of no one knows me is just so satisfying to me. It gives me more inspiration to be who I want to become. A friend and I are trying to plan a trip to Brooklyn, New York later on this summer. I just don’t know what I’m going to do with another person. I’m so used to traveling apart of me is just wanting to say no. I don’t know what to do, I just know that I want to feel anonymous again without the pressure of others around me. Thank you so much for sticking with me, I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next week!

Working out

I don’t think I mentioned this before but I work out pretty regularly about 4-5 times a week. Over time I’ve seen this benefit me and my overall health but at times I was still a mess. Now I’m at this routine where i workout so far every morning this week. I don’t know I guess sometimes working out does make a difference and other times not so much. I know this was short but my mind is somewhere else working on other poems. I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next week!

Going back to writing short stories.

So as you all now I have been writing spoken word since late last year but it hasn’t been the same.  Recently I’ve been back at it writing short stories about characters based off of who I am or was. I am going to make an effort to write not about me this summer seeing as that usually helped dealing with shit. By shit I mean terrible thoughts of the past and present.  I will be posting them to my old Wattpad account when they are done and decently edited by people. I will update it in each blog whenever there is one.

Also I got a ukulele so I will be trying new things with that on my YouTube channel. Like usual keep an eye out and I hope the rest of your day is great.