Relationships(pt 2)

Okay so apologies for the lateness of this post first off. Second let me know if you guys like this list format. So here’s a list of things I’ve taken away with my past and current relationship.

  1. You don’t need to talk to someone twenty-four seven (sometimes you need that break)
  2. If they aren’t putting effort, honestly aren’t worth it
  3. Vulnerability helps gain trust
  4. Tell them how you’re feeling when they feel it (don’t bottle shit up)
  5. Listen to music together
  6. If you are in a relationship remember it’s not one sided

I know it’s short but that’s what I thought of off the top of my head. As always I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next time!

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Things I fell in love with this summer

1)Bomber jackets

Even though they are more fall season, I love bomber jackets. I didn’t get any until the end of last month (they were vintage). They make any outfit seem more laid back or edgy.  They’re really comfy to wear with just a simple dress, or the classic jeans and tshirt. I know they will really come in handy when winter rolls around because of the thick material.

2)Early mornings

This has been due to both early morning classes and lack of sleep some mornings causing me to stay up till the sunrise. But no all seriously, I think its cool being up before anyone else and having time to yourself. I usually make a cup of tea, do a face mask, pick out my outfit if didn’t the night before, then do my hair. If I don’t have anything going on that day I like to plan an activity to do that day whether it’s going out for lunch or checking out a new boutique downtown.

3)Face masks

As I mentioned above I like to them in the at least twice a day. I use the sand and sky clay mask once a month(or when my skin is really bad like now). I also use some products from lush but if I just want to sit in absolute silence and think about something then I’ll do sheets masks.

As always I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next time!

Keeping Busy

So recently I’ve been doing this but not in the right way. I feel like you guys can relate because we all do this, so thankfully I’m not alone.

Story time(v)

I was in my old room, my bed was on my floor I had my music blasting. I wasn’t talking to anyone and I was in my own head twenty four seven. I barely got out of my room besides going to class or doing my laundry. It wasn’t until later as I type this that I realized I was busy…. Just not in the right thing.

See I feel like we all get like this to some degree, like if we watch too much Netflix besides working out or studying. Whatever the case may be I’m glad I noticed this when I did. To be honest I wasn’t going to post something today since I was going back to my own head.  It took me a minute to realize why I was acting the way I did before I started to type out this post. I mean this isn’t me saying I’m always like this but yes there was a period in my life when I was just in my own head twenty four seven.

So I went off on a little tangent but I will end with this and what helps me. Ask yourself how you are doing in any current situation. This has helped me ground myself and actually think about what I have to do versus what I did do. Then I clean for like ten minutes on a space where I work or a spot in my room I’ve been delaying for a while. Lastly, I make some tea, put on some tunes(usually indie or something from the girlboss playlist) and I get to work on something. I hope this helped you guys in anyway. Like always I hope the rest of your week is great and I will see you guys next time!

 

Travel

Recently I’ve been wanting to leave the state I’m in and I don’t really know why. With summer classes I don’t really have to be on campus but I am. I guess it’s just because I want to be anonymous again. That feeling of no one knows me is just so satisfying to me. It gives me more inspiration to be who I want to become. A friend and I are trying to plan a trip to Brooklyn, New York later on this summer. I just don’t know what I’m going to do with another person. I’m so used to traveling apart of me is just wanting to say no. I don’t know what to do, I just know that I want to feel anonymous again without the pressure of others around me. Thank you so much for sticking with me, I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next week!

The joy of reading

Recently I’ve been reading a lot and I realized that I missed it. I started reading Emergency Contact by Mary H.K. Choi and so far I am really enjoying it. As this is going out I don’t know how far I am but I may already be finished with it. While i was reading not matter where it was I remembered the joy of reading. How when you read that really good book that you forgot time was a thing. Or when you got in a really comfortable position in a public place but you don’t care about that. On Wednesday I was at the mall because finals is upon my campus and I needed to get away. So I went into Barnes and Noble right? Got this really large amount of tea and I sat down to read. For however long I was there I enjoyed it. I forgot how much you can relate to characters and picture them as friends. (If If you do that too we are automatically friends.)

I could go on and on about this but I have other papers to write and procrastinate. Leave a comment about your favorite book or character and why, I love hearing these so much. Mine currently is the main character of Emergency Contact, her name is Penny. I love how she’s so sarcastic and has a dry sense of humor. She’s awkward beyond belief and is a college freshman like myself. Anyways I hope your day or week was amazing and I will see you guys next Sunday!

Book review, The Woman in the Photograph by: Dana Gynther

During winter break I read The Woman in the Photograph by Dana Gynther  and it was surprisingly really good. I haven’t read historical fiction in a while this was not what I would expect. I found this in the bargain section of barnes and noble a while ago, it was like seven or eight dollars.

It follows the story of our main female Lee Miller and her journey to become a famous photographer/model/ actress. She goes to Paris in the 1920’s, the prime of swing, jazz music and surrealist. While over there she’s very eager to meet the well known photographer Man Ray. They soon become a couple and dive into the artsy class of that time, going out to dinner every night, meeting a lot of people. It seemed like a good time, Lee got a job working for the vogue there in Paris. Her time was torn between her job and Man Ray, it’s basically like those friends who are in toxic relationships but you don’t want to say anything. This goes on for most of the book, Lee would get into an affair then Man Ray would find out, he would get all mad. Then they would make up and be fine for a little bit, it would go back and forth. It wasn’t until about three fourths of the way, she finally leaves him. From there everything else goes downhill but at the end we know that everyone is okay, they just changed.

Let’s start off with the one who I hated the most, Man Ray. This dude, I had to close the book so many times just to breathe through what he said about women or just anything in general. I got it though, in that time period men were literally like that all the damn time, it made sense. Even today we can still see this mindset which is  really scary. Anytime he would use the pity card against Lee just to make her stay I got so mad because he knew it would work. The way they were together at the beginning but from the title I knew they wouldn’t stay together for long. Long though was the whole book but let’s be real I was hooked on it.

Now onto Lee Miller who was my queen the entire time, even though I knew nothing about her. Throughout the whole book we as readers learned a lot about her and why she thought the way she did. I loved how she wanted to be the best but also how she put other women up with her. She went outside of her comfort zone, she loved photography, and she loved herself. Lee had this 21st century vibe that I enjoyed reading, I related to her more than I liked to.

The book overall I give an eight out of ten, just because I thought she would leave Man Ray sooner. Some parts were boring but what are you going to do, it was when Lee was getting her life together, so it was alright. The imagery was phenomenal, one of the reasons why I love historical fiction. Lee was badass, she was smart, beautiful, and wise. This book was really good and I would recommend it to anyone, this book was a good trip.

They won’t always be there for you.

This is to makeup for all the selfcare sundays I have missed this month and last month. At the beginning of last semester I talked to this person, and I thought we would just become friends. That isn’t what happened, I have written a lot about this person and I don’t know if I should be happy about that or not.

I would say I have someone to blame but its really myself.  I warned this person from the very beginning that I wasn’t good for them but they wanted to help me, I pushed them away. Though they kept coming back to try and help but I knew I would just use them. I didn’t want to do that since we would see each other around on campus. Time passed and I talked to them again, to try and figure out what we were now. I thought we would go back to being friends or something along those lines. But I went back into the mindset that I could use them. So I dropped them again, I didn’t talk to them and they didn’t talk back. I didn’t want to do this to them, or to anyone for that matter, so I isolated myself. I was scared of seeing them again, I hid in my dorm room and only went out to class. I guarded myself when I went anywhere on campus alone. I didn’t want to see them because they could have talked to me.

During that time though, I was in a dark place in all honesty, I wasn’t taking care of my body like I normally would. I had these unhealthy coping mechanisms that I did not want to go back to so I tried to think of something to distract me. Time passed and I remember crying one night in my friends room, that is when I had my laptop up there so I tried to keep myself busy with writing and Youtube videos. I was thinking of starting a Youtube channel but realized I didn’t like being in front of a camera to talk. Then I thought about starting a blog, then I thought ,how hipster do we want to get? All I knew is I needed something to keep my mind off of them. It’s only a big deal if we make it one right? So I found my old blog and thought why not actually start this up? I did a couple of clicks and had is all set up, now just what do I post about. At first I thought about book reviews but I didn’t read as much as I did in the past. Then I thought about my outfits, until then they were very bland and not fun. I have always loved fashion, I love watching project runway, america’s next top model. So clothes, fashion, my style, my makeup game. I knew this would connect my two passions of fashion and writing, so I took a shot in the dark.

I know this is only the beginning for this blog but I’m going to work to branch outside of my comfort zone. Now I know through this experience that people will not always come back into your life. I know that person will never care for me like they did before. I still see myself as a young person so I still have a lot to learn, literally, I have homework. That aside I just want to thank my beautiful people for sticking with me. I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys soon.